Little Feet

Oh these little feet! Oh the places they will go! (Yes, I love that Dr. Suess book). They will take my little boy on so many adventures, they will take him places he never expected to go, probably both good and bad. I look at my little Walter and I can't imagine him as a grown up, yet that is where he is headed. Every day he gets bigger and bigger. If I blink I might miss it. I look around at all the adults in the world and once they too were little infants, just hungry and sleepy and gassy, wanting to be cuddled. Were they cuddled too much? Too little? What makes us turn into the various forms of adults that populate the world? Nature and nurture. Environmental factors. Chance. Faith. Love.

I spent two hours away from my little love today to run a chore. To fix my cell phone (cause who can live without a working smart phone these days??). And when I was stuck in traffic on my way back I felt frustrated that it wasn't easy to get home. I actually was going in circles at one point, and it was funny that the harder I tried to get home it didn't matter, I ended up in the same spot. Such is life; so cyclical. We ignore the present while we are trying to be in the "now." And now is all we have, all we should want.

Now that it is getting easier at night - he only wakes up twice - we have a more pleasant time together AKA I don't want to cry from lack of sleep. But, as a good friend of mine said recently, when they stop waking up and needing you in the middle of the night, you miss them, because this special time with just the two of you is gone. Life goes by so quickly; be careful not to miss it.

I love being a mother more than even I thought I would.